Chaos - chaos and random thoughts

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My mind is cluttered.  I am finding it difficult to focus on anything lately, and this is extremely annoying.  I have done very little writing...dishes are stacked in my sink...I've been to the gym twice in 2 weeks...I have a hard time with any emotion beyond indifference...I am feeling very disconnected lately, and I haven't a clue what to make of it.

I don't normally post this sort of thing here...but I guess I am wondering if anyone else is feeling this.  Is there something in the air?  Or is it really just me?

I have started, erased, and restarted this post several times the past couple days.  Not sure what, if anything, I want to say. 

I am very much looking forward to my trip to Arizona, Estrella War and Sedona.  I usually feel much clearer afterwords.

Birka this weekend was both good...and just eh.  I enjoyed the fencing, seeing old friends, making some new friends, and getting to work as a herald during court (and had it been written out completely in front of me, I would have read off your whole name, artisticphoenix  - but can only remember it in part!) 

I wish I had felt less disconnected in other ways.

Maybe a night of truly restful sleep will do it.  How DO I do that?  That's the trick question...