Lofty ambitions, zero motivation

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How do you reclaim motivation?

There are so many things I want to be doing...and my current motivation is zero.

What is up with that? There is nothing wrong with my life right now, per se...so why do I have no energy, no desire to move forward on those things I want in motion?

I mean, some writer I'm turning out to be...its been far longer than I'd care to admit since I wrote something new...and I have been stuck on my current round of edits of my novel in the same spot for about a month or more now. Why can't I move this onwards? Why am I not writing?

This is the kind of rant I usually don't share - this is the sort of thing that goes into the paper journal. But I think I am putting this here because I am wondering if this is just me...or if there is something in the air? Not that that matters, really...its up to me to do what I need to do.

Blah. That's where I am at. Just...blah.

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Not just you. My Thesis is stuck in similar limbo. While I have edits and the like for it back. . .I've skimmed them and then promptly decided to get distracted by other things.

I also have a PT technical writing gig for my security company. . .if I get off my hands and start moving, I can get paid for this. . .not moving on that yet either.

Excuses and procrastination are my motto this week. "Oh, well I need to get Cygwin running on my system again." "Oh well I need to clean my apartment" (true and I have no clue where to start on that.) "Oh well let me noodle around on WorldCat, yep what I need should be out there" but. . . I haven't ordered a thing from Inter Library Loan.

Though the rest of my life isn't blah, there is a fair amount of "how do I get this train moving again?" I've decided that life on all fronts will start moving again on Saturday. If I have to hijack 4 locomotives to do it.

Failing that, there is a demo on Sunday on campus that I must be at and will therefore have my butt solidly kicked into some sort of motion.

Sometimes I use LJ to report and/or confess to others where I'm at. Sometimes that expression is enough to break the block and/or keep me honest about getting some work done.

I'm not going to ask about your novel, though I think it is cool you are writing one. Sometimes, even giving a precis to someone lets the creative spark out of the project. The idea was expressed and though not in the glorious form envisioned, it is out there and the internal impetous for the glorious form is gone.

So, if possible, let it be a secret, and only reveal it when it is in final glorious form. Report on its progress if you like, but the content should not be let out of that metaphorical bottle.

Luck!