Lofty ambitions, zero motivation

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How do you reclaim motivation?

There are so many things I want to be doing...and my current motivation is zero.

What is up with that? There is nothing wrong with my life right now, per se...so why do I have no energy, no desire to move forward on those things I want in motion?

I mean, some writer I'm turning out to be...its been far longer than I'd care to admit since I wrote something new...and I have been stuck on my current round of edits of my novel in the same spot for about a month or more now. Why can't I move this onwards? Why am I not writing?

This is the kind of rant I usually don't share - this is the sort of thing that goes into the paper journal. But I think I am putting this here because I am wondering if this is just me...or if there is something in the air? Not that that matters, really...its up to me to do what I need to do.

Blah. That's where I am at. Just...blah.

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Writing

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Lately, nothing seems to really motivate me.

My novel is done. Its been professionally edited - I am just making further alterations based on those edits now. Its sequel is done, too, thought that has yet to be edited. Book 3 in the same series is underway, though I've not touched it in a couple years, as I was editing the first. I am now on the step of needing to get an agent for to sell the novel (series, if possible). NOT an easy task by any stretch of the imagination.

I started writing fiction (sci-fi, fantasy) when I was 9. My first completed work was 50 pages and illustrated. I stopped writing for a few years after college - but picked up with the current series I've been working on since 1998.

I had an agent, for a time - but he sucked, and this really isn't his genre, so I let him go. Since then, the series and books got retitled, and I am again ready to get an agent. This, of course, is no easy task.

Now I just need to get motivated to submit to agents (part of getting motivated, in this case, is preparing for rejection - I believe in this, but I AM a realist). And of course, the current round of editing is still underway - I need to get to the next point and finish this thing again!

So that's where I am at. But reclaiming the motivation for this is not easy...

Re: Writing

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If I wrote fiction then I would personally find out who Joe Haldeman's or Jon(?) Ringo's agents are/were and run it by them. They are two of my favorite authors and if I wrote something other than manuals or technical papers I would want to write like them.

Can you tell I've got a few minutes between set ups today and am not doing work on my thesis? Not even pretending?