fencerm2 | Sunday Morning Musings

My mom has been in town, visiting from MN since Wednesday. I love my mom, don't get me wrong...but there are multiple reasons why I live 1200 or so miles away...

I don't know who is making me crazier...her or my sister. As per usual (and this began when my sis get her MA) I can never do good enough by either or them. (My sis loves to look down on me from her degree and job pedastal - and she's the younger by 5 years.) I am unwilling, and to some degree, unable, to completely drop my life simply because mom comes to visit. I make a tremendous amount of time for her, of course (which is why I had to miss Mistletoe Revel yesterday) but no matter - I don't give her my complete, total, and undivided time.
Spent yesterday morning at HomeDespot with pascual_del_mar getting materials to put my new kitchen together. But because it took longer than expected, we (mom, sis and sis' bf) couldn't go out for lunch together. Nevermind we had plans to spend the evening in NYC catching an off B'way show and then a trek over to Long Island City for dinner and a jaunt to Rockefeller Center to see the tree after that - I didn't make myself totally available.
Today is the staff holiday party at The Urban Muse. My sister has tickets to a concert tonight, so I get to take mom along with me. Family is welcome to the party, though the first 30 minutes are for the staff to exchange Secret Santa gifts and all. And of course, mom doesn't fully understand why I am choosing to work at the store, rather than my previous job. Of course, when you get right down to it - my mom doesn't really understand me.
I take my mom to Newark Airport tomorrow morning, so my life is all my own again. Am I selfish because I don't want to drop absolutely everything I do because she comes to visit?

Ok, venting complete. Thank you.